The only "Fox" related things about me is that I have fluffy hair, I look good in orange, I like nighttime more than daytime, & I stay mostly silent but on rare occasions I like to make weird noises...

& no I'm not autistic a doctor has confirmed this...

I have been going insane since September 2025.

Just a few minutes ago I looked at the sunset (sort of since where the sun sets where I live is blocked by trees) & it half of the sky looked like it was made of gold.

...or perhaps it looked like it was... made of cheese...?

ok im over it.

Oh no, I think I might have made a mistake, I may or may not have found exactly what I was searching for... & now I am ofcourse cursed with the knowledge of its existence.

I am very glad that I have found it, but I am also thinking "I should not have done that I should not have done that D:"

& yes, I >WILL< keep this vague.

I feel pathetic, I thought I made progress only for it to be not as strong as I thought it would be, it crashed & burned.

Although it was only a nudge, I'm still sad about it not working out.

I ofcourse know all sadness is temporary, its just the clouds for this sadness is thick & shadowy, a great & heavy disappointment.

I asked my Mom for an electric tricycle (because I do not know how to ride a bicycle, & right now I am too lazy & impatient to learn how to ride one) & once it finally arrives maybe that'll put a spring back in my step.

If I had a nickel for liking a piece of media that used gnostic themes, I'd have 2 (or 3?) nickels.

It is once again another beautifully cold day in the middle of summer.

Something that I realized, is that temperature has different "flavors", the coldness in winter I would describe as "bitter", & the coldness in autumn would be "sweet" (ofcourse not a cut & dry rule...)

same thing goes for heat but I dont care so much about heat.

I'm kinda likke Shinji Ikari from evengelLion but instead of having to control a cool cyborg mech I have to do menial work

The autumn cold decided to take a visit today.

I would say all is good, but right now it is only half good, but soon all will be good.

For honestly no reason in particular, I have renamed my steam account from "Codename: BIG-KNOB" to "Fox", & then just now I have renamed it to "Cambrian Chud"

Thought that this was knowledge worth putting out there.

I still hate that little twerp Shinji though, he makes me seethe

Ok I will say a part of me doesn't 100% hate evangelion I do kinda like it, its just a love/hate relationship & the credits in the middle of the end of evangelion is so cool & the song is so perfect I've been listening to it all day k thats it.

I remember watching evangelion at some point a few years ago, & I tried rewatching it last year (or 2 years ago?) & I couldn't stomach episode 25,

but now I've rewatched it all + movie,

& now I can say with 100% confidence that I hate it, why use Christian symbolism & then not use any of its beliefs?

Most of my hatred for evangelion is just rolling my eyes at its philosophy, I admit.

& I hate that little twerp Shinji so much, its unreal.

I feel like I sound like a twerp writing this, but this is how I feel about evangelion, I just hope I like rebuild of evangelion.

Rei best girl btw.

Jesus is both the glue that keeps my life together & the knife that cuts me to parts.

I think thats a good description of last month as a whole.

also fisbh